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Monday, June 28, 2004
Slept 12 hours last night and had more dreams than in the last three weeks together. And now I'm bored out of my mind. Mainly because it's raining and I can't be bothered to go out for a walk, which is what I really wanted to do today.
I want to do something, damn it! I just can't think of anyone to ask to come along to do whatever.
Went to get Milla's birthday present today but the thing I was planning to buy wasn't there anymore. So I bought Lenny Kravitz's Greatest Hits CD instead. Erm. It wasn't on the list I've been making of CDs I want to buy this summer when I can finally afford them. But I don't think it was a bad purchase either. Yet. We'll see..
Just sent one of those "my head is spinning around and exploding" e-mails. Shouldn't leave things unsolved, they only end up coming out as rambling letters that don't make me feel any better but possibly worse.
If only it wasn't raining.
Watched Frankie & Johnny last night. Again a proof that Al Pacino's charisma is one of a kind.
Sunday, June 27, 2004
I went to my sister's friend's cottage, planning to stay for a few hours. Now, 24 hours later...
We went to Juska's cottage afterwards and somehow she dragged me to the bar and back to the cottage. Woke up there this morning slightly baffled. It was good fun, though. At least until I started to reach completely new levels of tiredness. Woah.
I think I'll just sleep for these two days that I have off until I have to go back to work again.
Fights are evil.
So are Hesburger meals.
Need to visit dad today and I can hardly keep myself awake. Don't know how I'll manage. Bugger.
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
Went to check Jaakko's journal for the first time in months and read through all the entries I've missed. Not too many as he doesn't write very often.
It turns out I was mentioned in March.
"We discussed this with Hanna today and I find it rather disturbing that Hanna remembers things that happened years ago with the accurancy of clothes she was wearing. Then again, she doesn't remember anything useful so it's ok."
True. And true. I just can't understand why it's so terribly disturbing. Ah well. We're all different. I can't help remembering useless things. Nor would I want to. It's my special talent. But I have to admit, I would like to remember some useful stuff too. Just for the sake of it.
Mum and I went food shopping today and now I should manage until Monday. And I can cook a little bit for Milla too. Do I feel guilty for making mum pay for all this? Yes. But we do need to eat. And I am completely broke.
Which reminds me, I need to phone dad for some money to pay for the hairdresser's on Friday. I really don't want to do it but I don't really have a choice. Gah.
I'm still trying to find a party to crash on Friday night. For once I'm not working through the whole Midsummer so it'd be nice to actually do something. This far I've found one occassion where I'd be welcome but there are circumstances preventing me from going. So I'll have to pass. And keep looking. Meh.
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
I think I ought to spend less time with Emppu. Nowadays every time we see each other, we end up talking about beef and pork dishes. It's not healthy.
It's not an impossible thought I'd actually eat red meat some day but as I haven't started yet, talking about all that food is a bit frustrating. Luckily, she shares my pain :)
Found Batman Forever from my good old VHS collection today. But why oh why am I watching it? I used to love the film when I was 13, and naturally Val Kilmer was the best thing in thw world after popcorn back then. I'm shocked to notice that the movie's terrible. I really didn't want to live this moment.
Started reading Harry Potter & The Order of Phoenix in Finnish yesterday. Finally! As the translation is brilliant and Harry hasn't turned into a complete arse just yet, it's been fun. I'm fearing the moment when the worst teen angst kicks in. I almost hated the book after that when I first read the book last summer.
I wish my brain worked like Jaana Kapari's, though. The translation is amazing.
Saturday, June 19, 2004
Major alcohol issues.
Not mine.
But many people close to me.
Should just stop using alcohol altogether.
Seriously considering it.
Thursday, June 17, 2004
Milla just phoned me twice from the concert. I heard We Can Work It Out, Drive My Car and Penny Lane. I almost couldn't cope. Shed a few tears of disbelief and amazement. Maybe I'm amazed :)
Note to self: when Samu happens to call and ask you out for a pint and some billiards, don't go. You'll end up getting home around 2am anyway.
We'll hear tomorrow if the owners of the Possibly Perfect Apartment I found yesterday accept students. If yes, Suvi's going to see if it actually is a Perfect Apartment on Saturday. Eeeek. I wish everything turns out ok, I really want to move. And the Possibly Perfect Apartment would be perfectly situated for a reasonable price and everything. I don't think I can wait until tomorrow.
And if they don't want students there, I'll send there Kari to kick their arses.
Milla's at the Paul McCartney concert and my bitterness is killing me.
ps. I know Colin Farrell will arrive with a blue car. We have a connection. Of course under certain circumstances I can settle with some other colour. As long as it's not gold.
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
I've done a fair amount of work today, especially if one considers the fact that it is actually my day off. Oh well.
KTN business should be all fine and done. Just need to send off one more e-mail and that's it for now. Unless, of course, there'll be improvements or something.
This week doesn't seem so bad really. Besides working from Wednesday to Sunday, all I need to do is write a few e-mails, do one more SBP poster tour with Milla, do a few small translations and fix the stupid tutor letter I've happily tried to forget for the past two weeks. I can handle that.
I don't know if our little fake Saturday night at Samu's yesterday was fun or not. I could've lived without the others playing croquet or being forced to watch the endless Eläkeläiset DVD with three extremely drunken people. But otherwise it was fun. Unfortunately those two were the main points of the whole evening. But you can't win all the time, can you?
I've decided to skip drinking beer for a little while, though. Good luck, me.
I made up a brilliant plan to sit at home slowly turning green until Colin Farrell comes to fetch me with a little blue car. Saves me from any unnecessary thinking.
I could also start a business inventing idiot-proof plans for anyone willing to pay me.
Saturday, June 12, 2004
Fell asleep at work today. The shame! Nobody saw it, apart from Maila, who occasionally even naps herself, so it's alright. But had anyone come to visit the place, me sleeping like a log would've been the first thing they'd seen. Lovely. And after I got home, I ate and then slept through Scream.
What is going on?? Last night wasn't particularly short even, over 6 hours for goodness sake.
Blast. Just remembered I've forgotten to do one work related thing I was supposed to take care of. But the Big Virus Fight with Milla's computer took all my energy and thoughts, I completely forgot. Tomorrow, then.
The new Hanna Pakarinen single sounds like old Britney Spears. And her album cover is almost identical to Antti Tuisku's. It's very nice they've figured out something original for her. *dry laughter*
Katri invited us girls over yesterday to spend the evening. The amount of food!! Five of us there and still you could feed half the town with the leftovers.
But now I really want to bake a pie.
It was really nice to be there, though. Even if it was me talking for three hours and the girls laughing politely. I really should avoid company when tired.. just for the sake of others.
Along with all my other pointless babble, I blurted out something remarkable (not really) yesterday.
Hanna: ...as we see in the Buffy episode 2.05 Reptile Boy!
Emmu: That's something we haven't heard in a good long while.
Hanna: Well, I just bought the first season 2 DVD box..
As I already said to Emmu, I did do that a few times last year to Suvi and Jaakko but they didn't really warm to it so I decided to skip the BtVS talk. Watching the first 12 episodes of season 2 in three days does wonders, though. Now I'm all "Ethan Rayne blah blah, and can you believe the order of Taraka thing??" :)
Randomness seems to be the word of today.
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
Yesterday was again one of those days when you should just stay in bed and sleep through everything. Things are looking up now but I wouldn't say they're great. But we'll get there. Someday, somehow.
Why is Camp Jim or D12's My Band on every time I open MTV??
Monday, June 07, 2004
I am bored out of my mind. Having a day off on Monday really doesn't suit me. I just hope I'll get used to it by August or this will be one painfully long summer.
I'm not so worried about my social life anymore, though. Yesterday I realised that instead of including only Maila, the woman I work with, my social circle consists of her, Samu and Miikka. And occasionally mum. That's four people. No reason to complain.
Dry humour. I still haven't caught up with my sleep after the disaster that was Friday night. Insomnia attacks when you least expect it to - creating more disasters like Saturday night. Emppu half dragged me to the bar and I was so tired I could hardly keep myself awake. Whee. Yesterday at work was pure torture.
Today's been a bit better. Hung out with Samu (who would've thought) a few hours and we're going out for a pint or two later tonight. But it's highly practical. Everyone else's weeks are from Monday to Saturday and then there is the weekend. Ours are from Wednesday to Sunday and then there is the weekend of Monday and Tuesday. So in a way, today's actually Saturday. And me and Samu keep each other company while everyone else is working or somewhere else.
We actually did invite a few people with us tonight, the rare individuals that actually are in Karkkila at the moment, but they either don't want to come or haven't replied. Pffft. Who would want other company anyway? Together we're more than enough.
Actually I was starting to be convinced there's something wrong with my phone (like I always do) because I'd sent about three thousand and forty-two text messages today and nobody replied. But then Emppu did. And now Pekka. So instead of there being anything wrong with my little Siemens (there never is), I just know lame and lazy people who couldn't care less.
I'm trying not to open telly for another hour. MoneyLine is on SubTV right now and in this state of boredom I know I'd phone there.
Friday, June 04, 2004
Ei tänään suju tuo englannin kieli. Mutta ei se mitään. Olenhan lomalla. Siis koulusta.
Hitto. Tunnen itseni ihan huonoksi ilman hyvää syytä. Itse asiassa kaiken järjen mukaan pitäisi olla ihan toiset fiilikset. Vaan ei. Pystyn vain ajattelemaan sitä, etten ole saanut mitään hyödyllistä tänään aikaiseksi ja olen hengaillut liikaa Caritasilla (Caritaksella? Miten hitossa se oikein on?). Jotenkin on tottunut siihen, että aina pitää tehdä hirveät määrät juttuja ja sitten voi olla hyvä ihminen. Pitäisi oppia mittaamaan itseään olemisen eikä tekemisen kautta, kuten tässä taannoin oli muutaman kanssa puhetta.
Jos tarkkaan ajattelee, on kyllä ihan hyvä päivä. Huolimatta siitä, että muikkukukossa, jonka äitiliinin kanssa aamulla torilta ostimme, olikin sianlihaa mukana. Olin murtunut. Koko työpäivän haaveilin kyseisestä ruskeasta klöntistä jääkaapissa. Typerät siat. Tunkisivat lihansa muualle kuin meidän muikkukukkoihin. Super möö.
Mutta takaisin asiaan. Ihan hyvä päivä. Heräsin ajallani, oleskelin rauhassa reilun tunnin, kävin äidin kanssa torikahvilla (ja söin hyvän voipullan) ja menin töihin yhdeksitoista. Oli yhtä hiljaista kuin eilen lukuun ottamatta isi-miestä, joka kävi ilmaiskierroksella, että sain vähän harjoitusta. Töitten jälkeen menin moikkaamaan Samua ja sain taas kahvia ja pullaa. Ja juuri nyt tajusin syöneeni tänään kaksi pullaa. Morkkis. Söin eilenkin pullan. Ja toissapäivänä munkin. Yhdestäkään en maksanut. Omituista.
Samu-reissun jälkeen palauduin kissojen pariin, oleskelin muutaman tunnin ja sitten näin Emmua pari tuntia. Juteltiin asunto- ja työasioita ja muita aikuisjuttuja. Hesburgerissa, luonnollisesti. Äsken kävin saunassa ja olen nyt erittäin ylpeä itsestäni, koska en lähtenyt baariin. Ei edes tee mieli.
Saunassa äsken mietin, että voisin itse asiassa nyt kesällä tehdä ns. van der Luydenit. Tekisin itsestäni harvinaisen ja näin ollen haluttua seuraa. Hyvä suunnitelma, mutta tunnen itseni tarpeeksi hyvin tietääkseni, etten malta kuitenkaan. Heinäkuuhun mennessä kyllästyn kotielämääni varmasti. Varsinkin kun ensi viikon perjantaista lähtien olen taas kiinteän nettiyhteyden ja SubTV:n ulottumattomissa.
Ehkä tässä "olen huono"-fiilikseen on syynä se, että olen lapsellisen vihainen kahdelle ihmiselle, jotka nuivailevat minulle. Toinen on kaukana ja toinen lähellä. En jaksa setviä kummankaan kanssa tilannetta ja näin ollen pääni hajoilee pienesti. Kummastakaan en voi käsittää, mistä tilanne johtuu. Toinen itse asiassa ei varmaankaan edes nuivaile, kuvittelen vain. Eli mitäs tässä. Pitäisi miettiä vähemmän.
Potentiaalisten kesäheilojen lista sai tänään taas uudistuksen. Onneksi en koskaan laminoinut alkuperäistä :)
Edit: mitä? Onko Tehosekoitin lopettanut? Ja taas sielu ja sydän itkee verta. Mutta onhan huipulla tietysti hyvä lopettaa. Ja muita latteuksia. Sitä paitsi viimeinen single oli mielestäni ihan kamala. Mutta silti. Vain Conan voi nyt auttaa. Ja siihenkin on vielä kahden Big Brotherin verran aikaa. En jaksa valvoa. Aamulla liian aikainen herätys.
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
First day in the new job was way too easy. Probably I'm going to faint and vomit tomorrow when I actually have to give a tour. Hurrah.
We went to see Troy last night. Erm. I think it's a bit ridiculour to pay full eight euros if you're only able to watch half of the film.. :) The battle scenes were mostly too much for my eyes.
I cannot stand Orlando Bloom. Previously I was happy with Jaakko's Orlando Bloom / Linkin Park theory but now having seen Troy.. I adapt Rika's way of thinking. He's pretty to look at in pictures but the minute he moves or speaks the illusion is gone.
Could Achilles have been any more sweaty? For goodness sake. I stand strong. If I was to choose between the oily Achilles Brad Pitt or Odysseus Sean Bean with a curly mullet, I'd still go for Sean. (Hey, a girl can dream.)
Eric Bana was the surprise talent of the film. He was good. Now I'm on a quest to see Hulk. I actually wanted to rent it on Monday but Emppu didn't so we skipped it. He's not exactly an ugly man, Eric, so a funny choice for the talented (read: ugly) brother :) Hector and Paris looked amazingly a lot like brothers, though. It was near Boromir-Faramir awe.
But now when they've filmed the Iliad (well, sort of) they could do Odyssey next. And cast Sean Bean in the lead. Woo! A piece of cake. Odyssey, surely it's easy to film and fit in mere three hours.
ps. Troy was way too long. 30 minutes less would've been just fine.
Momentary delusion of wealth attacked me and I ordered BtVS season 2 DVD box 1. Ummm. All we need to do next is wonder how I'm going to pay for it next week. :)
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