Wednesday, March 31, 2004
I've detected the reason for the emotional rollercoaster I've been suffering from lately. It's still here though.. one minute I can be perfectly happy going tra-la-la and the next I'm sitting in the corner, planning the liquidation of the people who happen to walk by. But at least I now know where it comes from and can stop worrying about it.
Oh, the happy times.
Not.
Kari was being the super annoying himself today again. But something was different: for some reason I didn't lose my nerve. I stayed perfectly calm and even got back at him a little. Woo!
Hanna: If you've never seen any of my work, how come you automatically think I can't do it?
Kari: I don't automatically, I just, I don't..
Hurrah! Victory! Well, half a victory, he did manage to say something that made sense right after that. I don't know where my sudden moment of confidence came from but I was happy to see it was there. It still is a bit, actually. Mmm.
But I've reached the conclusion that he can't dislike me nearly as much as he tries to make it seem. He wouldn't keep sitting next to me or hanging out with us if he found us (or me) that repulsive. His behaviour also suggests that in secret, he really likes to be hugged. Maybe I should be evil and stop doing it. Wicked laughter.
To conclude the Kari complaint entry:
When he's having one of his good moments, I like him. I just wish he'd have them more often. And would stop being such a pain in the arse when he's not.
Random: got tutor e-mail from Jopi. Luckily Jaakko warned me beforehand or I probably couldn't have coped. Teehee.. he wants to meet us, the new tutors that is, in a few weeks time. Scary. Meeting with Jopi. I hope we'll have cake! Aieee.
Edit: Suvi and Jaakko declared this day the official HHP (Hyvä Hanna Päivä --> Good Hanna Day) and a national holiday. Apparently everyone should celebrate it by eating loads of doughnuts. Only because I happened to open my mouth during the British studies lecture (and said the wonderful words: the north of France). Should probably do it more often, the calendar would be full of official Hanna holidays.
Monday, March 29, 2004
I am 21 years and 6 months old today.
To celebrate this rather important event, we wanted milkshake. Of course with me being completely broke, Hesburger seemed like the only choice. But lo and behold, the stupid Hesburger of Joensuu doesn't sell milkshake ("they haven't got the machine")! So me and Jaakko were forced to sell our souls and follow Suvi to McDonald's. And in the end, she was the only one who actually bought milkshake. Me and Jaakko had chocolate sundaes instead.
Hm. But it was nice. We sat the for quite a long time.
It's spring. Sun is shining and it's getting warmer. +8 celcius today.. not long and I can wear the spring coat I bought in January. Whee.
Was on story-telling mood today and entertained Suvi with stories of Kari the Intersexual Sheep.
To spend the evening with The Waste Land or Road Trip, that is the quetion.
Sunday, March 28, 2004
I actually did the linguistics home exam this weekend. I can't believe it. Two weeks before the due date. Of course I won't be here to hand it in on the actual due date. But still. Amazing. I also did the grammar & written exercises. It feels weird not to have anything that I have to do, apart from reading The Waste Land and preparing for the final presentation for oral expression on Wednesday. Quite a relief.
But because I am me, I am now feeling guilty for not touching An Illustrated History of Britain or Tender is the Night the whole weekend. But I can always do something about those tomorrow morning..
Eee.
Besides a shitload of school work (the exam was quite time consuming), I've dedicated some time to the SBP website. Erm. It's going to some direction, but I don't know exactly where. We'll see. I'll let it rest until tomorrow evening now.
It's actaully been the most unentertaining weekend ever. School, school, work, school, walk to S-market, school, crap movies. I've watched basically all the bad films that have been on telly. That also includes me filling the huge gap in my general knowledge that has been Ghostbusters. I have now seen it. And I even laughed when the Stay Puff Marshmellow Man appeared. The shame.
I still can't stand Bill Murray, though. Or Rick Moranis for that matter. Luckily the latter has pretty much disappeared from the films as of late. And Bill Murray's being far less annoying than he used to be.
Deep thoughts.
Friday, March 26, 2004
Good news of the day: pronunciation exam results came in. 3-. Not bad.
Vast understatement! It saved my day!
It was about the first thing I heard when I reached school this morning and suddenly the 90 minutes of grammar 1 didn't seem so unbearable anymore.
Then came Kari and I hugged him a lot as he is my new Cuddle Buddy.
I have a theory that maybe the reason why he is so violent (and grumpy) is that he never got hugged enough as a kid. So ever since last Tuesday, I've hugged him whenever I see him. He's not too pleased but I don't care. My project is making progress already. Yesterday he even laughed about it and today was the first day he didn't try to poke me in the eye with a pencil because of it. Though that might be because he wasn't holding one at the moment. And he did try to hit me with his mobile phone. But whatever. He'll learn and get used to it, eventually.
:D
I wonder if Miia's testing me or what. How long it'll take until I say something or even clean myself and so on. We have our weekly cleaning turns, right? Except that they don't really work. I clean, she doesn't. After last time I decided I will not clean until she does. That was three weeks ago and that's my maximum limit. So today I've vacuumed, washed floors (and walls) and toilet and bathroom and.. The best thing is that I mentioned the terrible state of our kitchen to her last Monday and she said that she' would actually have time right then and could clean. Then she disappeared to her room and I didn't see her anymore until Tuesday evening.
I know such thing as perfect flatmate doesn't exists, but come on..
Me and Suvi were playing with the thought of trying to get a group of 3 or 4 people and try to find a place somewhere nearer to the centre.
I really felt like listening to Manic Street Preachers and I could've sworn I had This Is My Truth, Tell Me Yours somewhere but woe, I couldn't find it. So I'm listening to Muse instead. Ought to make Jaakko happy. I've had his CD forever already but never got around to actually listening to it.
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
"This is the greatest and best song in the world. Tribute."
Me and Suvi have been seeing this incredibly beautiful man everywhere. Kerubi, cafeteria, the humanities building at the university.. Today when I left for school after 1pm, he came out from the building next to ours! Not that I mind seeing him everywhere, but this is getting weird.
A bit like Hlynur or the Black Sweater Guy in the beginning.
You know you're in need of holiday when you
a) burst into tears in the morning because you can't find "anything" to wear
b) can't fight the sudden craving for doughnuts
c) convince yourself to believe watching Sabrina the Teenage Witch is way more important than, let's say, the huge pile of grammar exercises waiting for you
d) wish to start WinAmp but you automatically start solitaire instead
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
Question: How many stupid jokes involving sausages can you make up in a few minutes?
Answer: Way too many.
"O woe! I am in trouble and there is no sausage in sight!"
Shaushaaadge.
Oh dear. And it is only Tuesday. When is the weekend here??
Today I decided I'll take the week before Easter off. I need a holiday and because Friday is free then anyway and I have no lectures that Monday, I'll only miss 3 days of school. And I can live with that.
The strangest thing happened today at lunch. There we were, me and Jaakko, eating the less delicious vegi tacos and then suddenly we fell into a real(!), serious(!!) discussion about our childhood, current lives and the people in it, our attitudes towards drugs and alcohol among other things. I don't know where the hell it came from. Usually we're not capable of saying two serious sentences on a same day and suddenly this happens.
Maybe it's the university spirit finally catching up with us. Ho ho.
But it was a really nice moment.
Monday, March 22, 2004
It's really not the best time to be feeling all flegmatic. Arse.. I've got to hand in the written exercise tomorrow and I just can't make myself to write it. I tried but it was no use. Also, pronunciation exam tomorrow. I think I've got the sounds somewhat covered but haven't got a clue about the intonation.
Oh sweet cheese.. Got my photos back. The film had pictures from New Year's Eve to last Saturday. Um. Yes. Singing I Will Survive (though in Finnish) to a bottle. For some reason I like that picture, though.
Suvi's head grows from my back.
I've been most annoying today.. when I haven't spoken non-stop, I've been going "ooooo, my head...". Quite the opposite from yesterday. I was all hyperactive after Jukka left the train in Lappeenranta. Of course, the battery of my phone died and I couldn't tease everyone I've ever met with endless messaging. So I read Tender is the Night instead and tried to sit still. Then I made Suvi walk home with me (in minor rain) and gave her a 60-minute monologue on my weekend. She said she didn't mind but even I was starting to get bored in the middle of it all.
All in all, it was a nice and different weekend. And I'm one walking UPI again. That's all I'm commenting here. Because I'm too tired.
Whyyy?!
Why do we have to have picture of every stupid thing we come up with? Oh well. Noses.
Saw Anna-Leena briefly on Friday in Tampere and it was really nice. I hope this doesn't mess up our schedule.. following the tradition, we shouldn't have met until July, at the very earliest. But I'll make sure we'll see each other then too.
My poor nose. It still feels like I was wearing the sun glasses I had the whole weekend.
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
Happy St. Patrick's Day. And Emmu's 22nd birthday.
Wooo! The birthday present was a success! Well-made compilation tape is always a nice thing but this time it was particularly special. I liked it and apparently she did too. Good.
Pekka - eeeh, Pekka L - annoys me a lot right now though. I sent him happy birthday wishes as well. No answer. I know we haven't seen each other since November but the polite thing to do would be answering. Especially when the text message included a straight question (whether or not I'll see him next weekend). Merh. Makes me feel stupid because I care. Or then he's switched phone number and forgot to let me know again or something. Would figure.
Saw Näkymätön Elina today and loved it. Beautiful film. Both the story and the landscapes.
The Ireland presentation is now done. I can't believe I don't have to worry about it anymore.. I wasn't really satisfied with the result but people seemed interested enough. Neither of us fainted and even the transparencies and handouts worked just fine. Cathy gave us 2+ and said that she hasn't really graded any presentations higher than that. So it's all good. Still, I can't believe she didn't give me any negative feedback because my pronunciation and grammar seemed to have gone on holiday and not many of my sentences were really making sense. Oh well.
What kind of moron makes a dentist appointment for 8:15am when school doesn't start until 4pm? Answer: me. But at least this means I won't sleep all day tomorrow and maybe will even read the Illustrated History of Britain which I borrowed from John today. Still, I am kicking myself. What was I thinking??
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
Aerh. It's again one of those days.. if people don't reply to my text messages in an instant, I'm certain they're mad at me for some reason. And thus I keep obsessively checking my phone. Exactly the same thing yesterday. Why isn't anyone replying?? What have I done? Is there something wrong with my phone? Noooo! Somebody call me, please!
Or possibly I should just start a phone rehab. Close it for a week or so and try to manage without it. I've done it with the net a few times, it worked just fine. Esa did the phone thing last year. He's my hero.
After having such an effective day yesterday, I haven't done anything today. Well, morning still looked good.. I went to the exam, was out of there in 15 minutes (and I'm pretty sure it was a pass, too), went to the library, read Helsingin Sanomat, read a few chapters of Tender is the Night and did the grammar excercises. But after the written class the mood was gone and I've been like a huge bowl of grey jello ever since. Really. I'm cheery as a dead fish. Arse.
Some immortal Saija-isms were born in written today, though. She's amazing. "I can't deny that you're totally wrong." O, Bruce, wherefore art thou ill?
Dyed my hair. It looks ridiculous.
Oh and Rika. I know, once it's out, all copies of the first Derek album will disappear from shops before you have time to say "Castle Grayskull" but I'll make sure you'll get one. Signed. Twice.
Monday, March 15, 2004
Today I have finished Emmu's birthday present, mailed off Mikko's Maailman meno CD (with a letter), vacuumed my room, finished my parts of the Ireland presentation (and rehearsed them), printed out some of Suvi's and yet I feel like I haven't accomplished anything. It might have something to do with the fact I have not revised for the IT passport exam tomorrow. Baergh.. But it's only a bit after 7, I have lots of time.
Considering the fact I don't really like MSN messenger, I'm loving it a surprising amount right now. It saved both my Saturday and Sunday nights. Well, MSN messenger and Emmu together that is. Nice, brainless chat to keep me away from more important - read: school - things. Whee.
Yesterday we decided to form (yet another) band. I sing, play bass and butt percussions (remains of Marie's classic butt orchestra invention). Emmu's handling guitars and drums at the moment but we thought it might be a bit challenging even for a multi-talented girl like her so we're looking for a new guitar player. Of course we only accept someone who's up to our level, ie the best. It doesn't matter I've only touched a bass about three times in my whole life, I'm determined to become the best kick-ass bass player the world has ever seen. Wembley Arena, here we come!
Oh, and the band's called Derek.
And something tells me we ought to stick with our usual discussion topics --> men, lack of men, nice men, nice-looking men, men who'd make a nice couple with us, you get the idea. Or get rid of the effing MSN messenger.
ps. we're not shallow.
My head aches.
Edit: I just remembered, while Suvi and Mauno were here, that today's Fabio's 45th birthday. Happy birthday, Fabio. Why do I know these things?
Sunday, March 14, 2004
I've said it before, I'll say it again: let my sister go anywhere unguarded and funny things happen. I am waiting for a phone call.
Wanted to listen to something that a) I've discovered myself (ie. not been introduced to it by any of my friends at any point) b) wouldn't have any memories connected to it. Mission impossible.. couldn't find anything! How sad is that? I thought U2's 1990-2000 would fill in the criteria but boy was I wrong..
Time goes differently in Joensuu than anywhere else, I swear. We went to Kerubin kuppila yesterday again and I was all ready to go before 1am. This doesn't happen anywhere else! Or if it does, not all the time. Strange. It would've been good had I actually slept, but no.. Being the clever person I am, I drank 2 strong cups of tea and a cup of coffee after 9pm. Stayed up until 4am my head aching like hell.
It was nice having the girls over before we went out. The blueberry pie they'd made was also very nice :p But I've got to say I've trained Suvi well, unintentionally even. It's scary how much she's starting to resemble me nowadays. Two Hannas. Not necessarily a good thing for the environment, though.
There aren't many things that make you feel as stupid as hanging out in 70's winter overalls on a Sunday morning.
Saturday, March 13, 2004
Teehee.. How often do I go to a bar in Joensuu? Basically never. How many people I know here that aren't first (or second) year English students? Probably -3.
Yesterday, however, although I was still feeling like shit (and the was a good film on TV!) I dragged myself to Kerubin kuppila with Suvi and Maiju. And who was the first person I saw? Markus from Lahti! Never knew him really, we spoke a few times but was friend of my friends. After sneakily staring at him for about I noticed he was leaving. And as I was standing nearby anyway I thought I'd lose nothing if I actually spoke to him. So I did.
He was really nice! I mean, before he always made a bit big-headed impression, but not anymore. It turned out he's been living here since September and is moving away in the of this month. He asked if I'm out next weekend (which I'm not) or the following (which I might be) so we'd bump to each other again. Heh. We'll see. It was very weird but also extremely nice to see him.
Ah, anyway. About 15 minutes after Markus had left, who walked in? Sini! I knew she lived here now but after trying to arrange some sort of a coffee date two or three times in September, I kind of forgot all about it. We never were the bestest of the best friends but I was honestly glad to see her again. Hopefully we'll now get around to seeing each other even..
Oh. And Timo Rautiainen was deejaying. Talk about strange. We spotted some other celeb-likes as well. Funny.
All in all nice night out even if very tired. And I felt bit silly having cheap pints when no one else around me was having anything stronger than coffee or coke. Oh well. Tonight all I can afford is tea so I'm joining the club. I was home by midnight and fell asleep immediately. Woke up 11 hours later but am still tired. I don't know.. not very relaxing sleep because I had The Most Distressing Dream Ever vol2 to entertain me (actually, if it hadn't been so distressing, it really would've been entertaining because everyone spoke like Oscar Wilde characters). If this continues I don't think I dare to go to sleep anymore. Where did all the nice dreams go?
Friday, March 12, 2004
My Friday by H-M.L.
Woke up from the most distressing dream at 6:30, got dressed and had breakfast. Started writing e-mail to Emmu, explaining the dream. Half way through noticed that the keyboard had gone temporarily nuts and none of the letters typed matched the ones on screen. Decided to re-start the computer as it usually helps but when the shut down screen appeared, the compuiter started to make the strangest beebing sound. Shut it down altogether but then realised it wouldn't start again. Hurrah!
Tried to figure out what's going on but couldn't. Ended up running to the 7:30 bus only to realise there isn't one so early. Hung out for 20 minutes to catch the 7:52 bus. Got in, paid for the 30-day bus pass, sat down and at that moment my phone started to ring. It was YTHS informing me that my appointment with the dentist at 8:15 had been canceled. Went straight to school and hung out another hour before poetry.
Couldn't concentrate during the lecture but read the comic book (Dork Tower) Jaakko had brought me instead. Realised there was no way I would survive grammar and thus left after poetry. Went to Body Shop to buy blueberry body butter to cheer me up it didn't work. Was supposed to do something with Suvi and Maiju but was too hungry and left. Came home, ate, and have done nothing since. Woo!
Sometimes you should trust your instincts and stay in bed.
But at least my computer is working just fine. I have no idea what was wrong with it in the morning. Oh well.
I should clean the flat but got hooked on the Dork Tower archives.. ooops. I may not know anything about role playing but these do make me laugh. I guess it serves the purpose just fine then.
Thursday, March 11, 2004
I did enjoy The Importance of Being Earnest even though it had some major weak points. Then again, the text itself is so good a few weak performances can't ruin it.
But I must admit my eyebrow fetish (heh) is getting worse.
Tried to do the grammar exercises today with not much success.
Fill in with suitable words in correct form: I'd rather_____than_____.
Hanna: "I'd rather drown than burn." .. No! Can't put that!
I don't think I would've got through the day without Jaakko. I was moping all morning and when I finally got to school before 4pm I was ready to bite the next passer-by's head off. And along came Jaakko with his incredibly bad sense of humour. I can't frown when he's around. I swear I tried, it's just not possible.
Jaakko'c company also saved me from dying of frustration during poetry today. After sending several desperate text messages to kill time, we decided to make March 11 the national bruise day. From now on all the young people will celebrate it by getting their body full of mysterious bruises. Then ones got from sled sliding are preferred but also UPIs (like mine) will do. Sounds reasonable enough for me.
Magic mushrooms.
Oooo, it must be mine!
Merh. Got e-mail from person A telling things about person B I really didn't want to hear. Not that it really affects me or is any of my business, but I would've liked to know. And I would've rather heard from it person B himself, not from someone else.
Also. As reminded by the very same e-mail, I can't remember when someone's last phoned me in the middle of the night just to say hi. I miss that.
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
I'm so proud of myself. I went out. Roy was supposed to show us The Age of Innocence but there was something wrong with the tape so me and Suvi went to see Hablo con ella (or Talk To Her, as you wish) instead. After that we went to Jokela to see Ville Leinonen.
He was lovely.
Though I was a bit disappointed he didn't play Siivet ja kyyneleet as it is my ultimate favourite. Pimeän sydämeen and Enkeli nearly killed me though. Aaaa!
Tomorrow we're going to see The Importance of Being Earnest and on Friday I'm going to Kerubi with Suvi and Maiju. It almost seems like I had a life in Joensuu. Gracious!
Mentioning favourites up there, Favourite gave his presentation on first aid in oral expression today. And when he needed to demonstrate the recovery position, who was ther lucky lady that got to assist him? Correct, ten points team you.
Favourite: Does anyone want to volunteer or should we pick by number?
Hanna in mind: Should probably volunteer, I just know it'll be me anyway.
...
Favourite: Number it is then. Cathy?
Cathy: Number..
Hanna in mind: Two.
Cathy: Number two.
Hanna: Hoooray!
But I did get a little first aid kit as a reward. Might come in handy at some point. Still. Lying on the floor infront of the whole group while Favourite is explaining the position wasn't one of my favourite (sadly, no pun intended) experiences ever. Oh well.
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
I was feeling even worse this morning than I was last night. Still I dragged myself out of bed and went to school because our written group is really falling behind. There it turns out the lesson has been canceled because Bruce was absent - again. Aergh! He only came back last week! Why is this happening?
Probably should've gone straight home but no. I just hung out for four hours before poetry (because there's no way I could've gone to the pronunciation class) and almost fell asleep there. Hooray.
Also, Kari was on the most annoiyng mood today. When I'm feeling alright myself, I never let him fully get to me but today as I was feeling like shit, there was nothing I could do. He can be such an arse if he wants to. I don't know. On a bad day he somehow manages to wake the violent side of me that is normally non-existent.
Avoiding him for the rest of the week then. Doesn't sound like a bad idea, really.
My e-mail delievered some original art by Suvi today. I'm thinking of making a desktop pattern of it :p Except that it won't happen, at least in the near future, I like the current one far too much.
Why isn't Emmu on messenger? I want to talk to her! Just e-mailed her but it didn't help. Baccaaa.
Monday, March 08, 2004
I can't believe I bought eggs and made an omelette. Miia's taught me even to hate the smell of those as she hasn't eaten anything but omelettes after Christmas (honestly, she can eat three every day). I was just too sick and too tired to do any thinking when I went food shopping. And as I needed eggs anyway and dad gave me about bazillion cans of tuna on Saturday, an omelette seemed like the easiest way to go. Still. Strange.
Baergh. This is one good time to catch a cold. My head feels like it's about to explode and breathing demands careful concentration. Of course the fact I've slept 5 hours maximum each night after Friday isn't helping much. I'm half dead. Now when the tired giggling phase is gone, all I can do is stare blankly and try to think.
Trying not to have any regrets though.. the past weekend was one of the funnest in a good long while. Surely there were some minor low points, but you can't really avoid those, can you? So I'm skipping those and sticking with "a very nice weekend". But I have to say that being in Joensuu now feels tad bit weird and also bad in a way. Luckily I'm mostly busy and don't have time to ponder that.
The Red Hot Cheppers.
On a side note: I think I know what I want now.
Sunday, March 07, 2004
My beloved 3210 decided to die on Friday night. Panic! Milla gave me her phone for a while and I got a new one yesterday morning. It's a Siemens, which is rather scary as I've been totally Nokia whipped for my entire mobile phone career.
Although writing text messages is still painfully slow, I can't stop sending them. Last night I wasn't the least bit tired and thus Emmu and Pekka had to suffer from the non-stopping pointless text messages. Suvi wasn't helping too much either..
Hanna: I feel like sending *insert the stupidest message ever*
Suvi: You definitely should.
Hanna: But *insert explanation here*
Suvi: I still think you should.
ps. I have named my new phone "bunny" (though in Finnish). Interesting little facts.
Milla said I should advertise the Maailman meno CD, which is out now, because "half of the people in Karkkila read this blog". As if. Most of those who do have something to do with the CD anyway. But nevermind. I am Good. Please buy the CD. We likes it, preciousss.
Nerd nerd.
And now let's all play jello. Blrrrrrgh.
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
Jaakko: Well, then she'll crash all your local rock CDs!
Hanna: I'll get new ones in an instant - cause I'm with the in-crowd.
Jaakko: YOU'RE INVINCIBLE, SUPERLESBIAN!
Hanna: I know. Except that I'm having an evil day and therefore am Dereklesbian.
Jaakko: Dereklesbian! :D
Hanna: The best alter ego ever.
Monday, March 01, 2004
Why oh why did I choose the IT passport thingie instead of staying up for the Oscars?! Probably the worst waste of time there is. Of course I have to go through them at some point so now's as good as ever. But still.
We practised saving, copy & paste and other equally exiting things. I wouldn't go to the practice groups but straight to the test but I've never really used Unix. And if I sit through the practice three times, I can skip the test (except the written part). Still. Pain.
As the possibility only comes once in every four years, I thought it's wroth a shot. I sent Jaakko a message yesterday asking if he'd marry me because I just wanted to hear his excuses for not buying me fabric for a new skirt when refusing. Apparently he hadn't thought about the fact that according to the old saying, silence equals agreeing and never answered anything.
And if we believe that, we're now technically engaged. Which is most unfortunate as I wasn't really planning that. Oh well. It is nice to have a fiancee, once again - even if that means him not buying me any fabric. :p
What he will buy me, however, is a new pair of socks. Hurrah for the sock chain letter! (and Suvi who sent it to Jaakko)
I don't think RotK quite deserved all the awards it got. But maybe it's just me.
I'm pretty convinced it won all those only because it had to. They couldn't give the first two the best picture award (not that TTT would've got it anyway) and now when the trilogy's over, they had no choice. And now they're cursing themselves because they didn't give it to FotR in the first place, because now they realise it was the best.
Thumbs up for PJ though. He deserved it.
And can't complain. Sean Penn is good. He's not Johnny, but he is good.
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