Thursday, October 31, 2002
My costume party costume - never again. The idea might have been fun in the beginning but the costume itself was no fun at all. Party average, except for Johanna's misplaced kneecap. But she's getting better now.
I have decided never to pose for a camera again.
Speaking of photos (sort of), I need to have a scan fest sometime soon. Just for the sake of it.
My head is blank. I'm convinced the school's computer lab keeps killing my thoughts.
Why can't there be some sort of gadget that hides me when I'm staring at people? There are some people I would like to observe, just because they look so darned nice. But I can't. They start feeling paranoid and I start feeling stupid when they catch me doing that. Me and Inka were talking about this today. And we decided it's most unfair.
I got my roommates obsessed with Buffy.
How do I do it? Person by person I turn people into watching it.
I'm the best in that. Whee.
Tuesday, October 29, 2002
What. A. Saturday. Me and Hellu were partying like there was no tomorrow. It's been ages since I've last done that! And been that wasted.. says a girl who had tequila up her nose a week earlier. How did it happen? What did I do? What did Hellu do? What?!
I forgot to e-mail Virve and Tai. I'm so embarrassed.. not about Virve but about Tai. Really.. she e-mailed me in May - saying things like "it's good to know that there is someone to rely on". I am a horrendous person and feel bad.
I feel bad about myself today anyway.
Skipping school tomorrow.. have rest of the drivers license thingie. And the costume party in the evening! Whoa! Suddenly dressing up as a school girl from 1988 doesn't seem like such a good idea after all.. :|
Saturday, October 26, 2002
I hate being in a hurry.. argggh!
Interesting porridge incident in the kitchen a few minutes ago. Science experiments with food, chapter 17.
Fashion show thingie went surprisingly well. I had nice hair. Not so sure about the lipstick though... anyhoo. I got a good discount on those clothes, so yay!, I bought the first round. Now I've got a new shirt and a new pair of jeans.
And she flees! Only to spend the next 3½ hours in a bus or waiting for one. Annoyance!
Friday, October 25, 2002
What Aspect of Orlando Bloom Are You?
Mmm.. okay?
Seeing the other possible results, this isn't so bad after all.
Ways to use time sensibly: lesson 1.
But while taking that test, I found something:
"I've got a black woolen hat and it's got PERVERT written across the front of it. It's the name of the clothing label. And I was with my wife and my baby at the supermarket and I didn't think. I just put my hat on Clara's head, because it was cold. And the looks. I couldn't figure out why I was getting death looks. And then I realized my 10-month old baby's wearing a hat with the word pervert written on it and these people were like, 'There's Satan! There's Satan out with his kid!' And then I made a point of her wearing it every time we went there." - Ewan, on an experience during filming A Life Less Ordinary in Denver, Colorado; Buzz Magazine March 1997
Hurrah!
My head aches. Too much CKone..
The fashion show thingie is tonight and I'm nervous. Not about the rounds really, but I really don't believe I'll be able to change my clothes that fast. I don't need a lot of time usually, actually I need next to none but this is different. Why oh why did I ever agree to do this? Oh yeah, I had no choice.. Harumph.
Thursday, October 24, 2002
Entry of the day:
my head is empty.
No wonder after all that coding.. I never knew one could over-code, especially during one day. But apparently it's very possible. Now I ought to make a wallpaper for James site, just so I can update tomorrow - but naaah. Can't be bothered. I'll just head for bed. Sleep is good. Everybody, hug sleep. If you do, it'll give you nice presents for Christmas.
Wednesday, October 23, 2002
I just bought the ugliest shoes ever. Stupid fake army boots. I like army boots but only if they're real. These are annoying fake teen version with a zipper! It's like I'm retarding back the 14-year-old me. No, hold on. The army boots I had when I was 14 were actually cool. I cannot cope. I hate forced shoe buying situations. Augh.
Me and my sister came up with this idea for Halloween. Hurrah. I really wanted to be Wolverine but realised I don't have time to do the costume. So now, towards something completely different.
Nooo! Halloween costume panic! We're having a costume party and I want to have something nicer than for example last year.
I've got some ideas, but those characters are all male. Or require long hair. Arggggh. Help!
Tuesday, October 22, 2002
Pekka asked for it, he got it.
My net connection was all kablooey so I started looking through my image archives (yay for boredom!) and found this beauty. First I tried to make a wallpaper of it but thought it'd look better as a layout. Thus, version nine of Tomaotes. Hug it, celebrate it, praise it, hate it, hurt it, throw at it with rotten potatoes, I don't care. I'm in awe. They're beautiful.
ps. the driving thing today --> most useless 45 minutes I've ever had. I really can't see the point of it all.
In Finland, in order to get the permanent drivers license, you need to take the driving test in two parts, right? After the first part you have two years (max) for really learning to drive.. The second part only takes to days, driving and a theory day. Hanna, who hasn't really driven a car properly for at least 6 months, is having her driving part today because her license expires in November. Hurrah.
I'm a bit nervous. I still have an hour to go but I'm not even dressed yet. Auuuugh! Yesterday I spent two hours just driving around and mum siad it went well, but I don't believe her. What does she know? Pffft. And I know that as soon as I see the teacher, who I can't stand and who can't stand me, I'll just freeze. Blast. But! At least it's not the rush hour. Very few cars out there at 11am. Pgeww.
Still: auuuuugh!
I admit it. I have a Dom wallpaper now, of one of those pictures I posted yesterday. It's just that the image made me laugh so much I couldn't resist it. He looks funny.
Speaking of feet, which Emily was, I've got the ugliest feet. In general, I don't really like feet, feet are ugly, but I've got a really bad complex about mine. They're terrible. Especially the toes.. Wish I could switch them.
Monday, October 21, 2002
Woaaah! I so want to make a layout using this!
Or possibly this. Too bad the colors aren't too good in this second one.
Tee hee! Look at that nose!
Seems like somebody, very possibly me, has found the joys of Dom surfing again.
Also, sometimes smile can be scary.
ps. I cannot believe I just clicked on this link. I think that's a bit too much really. Sweet cheese. But it appears I'm not the only one who made screencaps of the infamous shower video..
Which Buffy Episode Are You?
Figures. That pretty much sums me up. Except that I don't know about the praising and adoration, but whatever.
But I have to say I knew the result from the beginning of the quiz..it was either this or Once more with feeling.
I wear the cheese, it does not wear me.
Sunday, October 20, 2002
The first episode of Smallville aired today in Finland. It was so cheesy I couldn't believe it! I know I'll get hooked and watch it almost religiously and at the same time feel very stupid and embarrassed about it.
Having had tequila up my nose last night (one of the less happy moments of my life), my head has hurt like hell the whole day. I hope it'll be away by tomorrow or I jsut cannot cope. Sigh.
Oops- I am officially drunk. Not slightly tipsy or a little bit pissed, I am really drunk. Tee hee. And that's all I'm going to say about that.
Oh, Grease. I'm in love with the young Joh Travolta - again! I shouldn't watch films like Grease or Saturday Night Fever, they do me no good.
I'm in love with Nick Carter as well, which is enormously weird because I've never really liked him. Today I've listened to Help Me about bazillion fimes on repeat. For three or four hours. oi, weirdness.
Alli, I never said I was sane :D
Pekka,your red carpet is right here! Can't you see it, you silly?
Gooooo Screamin' Stukas!.
Friday, October 18, 2002
Oi! Gem! I found the Grease DVD today. Rented it. Yippee!
Why oh why can't I find decent, new BSB images anywhere? Especially Nick. I need those. Arggg.. If anyone can point me to them, I will love this magical mystery person for a long time. Whee.
And since Pekka asked, the message was from my friend from the dorm (the traditional boy next door actually, tee hee). It was just very cute. Impossible to translate into English, pointless to write here in Finnish sooo.. not going to bother. It was just a thank you note with a stupid inside joke. What the fuck are we doing in Spandau anyway?
Yes. Right. Translating reminds me. I was in hysterics in the translation class today. I just kept giggling. Most annoying. And still! Mr H said I'd done a good job. Extreme weirdness..
Help! What am I doing? I'm surfing John Travolta image galleries!
This is the girl speaking who listened BSB's Drowning on repeat for 2 hours last Wednesday.
I think Tiina was right. I ought to get my head fixed.
Got the sweetest text message today. I will never ever delete it. Never.
Wednesday, October 16, 2002
Something wrong with Blogger. I wanted to blog this morning but half of the darned thing wouldn't show. It still refuses to co-operate, but I'm giving it a shot anyway.
Some people I know are feeling really bad and their problems are real. I feel like I don't have the right to feel shitty because my problems are just stupid, minor ones compared to theirs. And I feel ridiculous and useless because I can't help and at the same time I feel extremely guilty for being so broken all the time myself. Auuugh. I think I need a new head.
Actually, I think it's a good thing we have a holiday next week. A week off equals fantabulous right now. I know I'll be feeling very lonely and everything will be very odd but having time for myself only is probably what I need right now. And I also need to complete my drivers license, so that's what I shall be doing. Meh.
Monday, October 14, 2002
Damn you, Barnaby! Stop eating my posts!
Need. To. Watch. Better. Films.
My sister came to visit me and we rented At Any Cost. Surely, we rented it only because of Glenn Quinn (though she had no idea who he was) - and I didn't mind James Franco either - and I really expect anything from it. Still I was amazed. The badness of it! Holy feet of Frodo! Just how terrible can one film be? Argh.
Glenn Quinn's character, whatshisname? Ben?, looked just like Doyle. It was very distrubing. In the funeral scene I waited for Doyle's demon face to appear. Alas, it never did. Oh, woe.
Ah! Most amusing e-mail I get. I had about 20 new messages, some of them mailing list digests, rest of them spam. "Abused teen models DVD". That will probably be my next purchase. Ho, ho. Everyone laugh, bad humour is blossoming.
"Hanna, we're not laughing at you, we're laughing near you."
I bought Trainspotting the book last Saturday and I'm loving it. Of course, it takes me about bazillion years only to get through one page but it's very much worth it. Whee! I also bought BSB's greatest hits CD as it was finally cheap enough.. and it saved my day today! Had a bad day, skipped the food culture and went to our room to listen to the CD. Fantabulous. Also knitted a little. The first one of Mikko's infamous socks is almost finished. I am the knitting goddess. Yes, really.
Saturday, October 12, 2002
Oh the weirdness of it all. Own computer --> blogging seems much more natural!
My ear really hurts. I think I might need medication.. I just don't want to go see the doctor. Blast. And I don't know when to do either.
I'm leaving for Lahti today again, so it's just a short visit. I wish I'd had more time, basically for sleeping. Of course I could've gone to bed around 10 and sleep happily until eight, but I couldn't stop singing! I listened to all the old crap albums through and sang along.. heehee.. New Kids of the Block was alright but Westlife's first album was absolutely wonderful! Now I'm listening to Boyzone - and singing again. I need help.
Actually.. listening to this album (Where We Belong) reminds me of the time I listened to it all the time. I guess that was about two years ago.. I had all the great theories about the theme of them album and how there's a story there, but I can't remember what they were! Hmm. Maybe I should really, really listen to it. I remember how I've explained all my theories to Emmu, and she couldn't care less, but I couldn't keep my mouth shut.
Also, rented a film yesterday. Wishful Thinking. Bad! I liked the style, but somehow I feel like no one had thought it wholly through. Drew was pretty, but then again, she usually is. But really, there are a lot of better ways to use your 2.50 euros. And that's a fact.
Thursday, October 10, 2002
Noooooo! I just saw Virve's Orlando layout and am most envious! Want to create new layouts. Want to do it now. Cannot wait a week til holiday. Cannot cope. Arggh.
Wednesday, October 09, 2002
All this new learning amazes me, Sir Bedevere!
In Ireland, right along with Sligo, Dublin, Mayo, Kilkenny, Limerick, Clare, Cork and Galway, there is the county of Monaghan. And I never knew that.
About me sort of standing up someone yesterday: it happened to me today. Grrr. After looking into it for a while, I noticed it doesn't really matter but still, annoyance. It's one of those days again anyway.
Hanna: I had a dream where I weighed 115 kilos.
Marie: Hey! I had a dream where my mum weighed over 100 kilos. And she's not that big really.
Hanna: Neither am I. At least I should hope so (failed sarcastic tone here).
Marie: Well, I do believe you are.
Hanna: What?
Marie: That big. Over 100 kilos.
Hanna: Not funny.
My bad. I mean, I haven't told people here that my weight is one of those things you don't joke about. You just don't. Unless you really want an enemy for life.. Marie did apologise later and I don't blame her, really. But I'm still feeling nasty.
I hate the world today. Want to skip aerobics class tonight. At the same time I want to go to some sort of marathon aerobics and just be there until I'm half dead. Weird.
Tuesday, October 08, 2002
I am most embarrassed!
I hate people who promise to do things and then without a word just bail out. Now I find myself turning into one. I've done that a lot lately, eg today. Phew.
Help!
I need some time with computer. I mean, real time. I hate how I've abandoned all my sites, including this blog. Meh! I mean, last spring I didn't exist anywhere else than the net, but now it seems like I exist everywhere but online. I'm even starting to forget all the basic coding. Need. To. Make. Layouts. AUGH!
Monday, October 07, 2002
I've reached the conclusion where my stomach is evil. It doesn't hurt the way I ought to go to see the doctor, but I tell you, it's not nice. Grr.
Too much school things to do. Noooooo..
Friday, October 04, 2002
I have the weirdest dreams nowadays. They're even weird on the Hanna scale. Am most confused.
Decided to marry the young Graham Chapman, too. Or then possibly Arthur, the king of the Britons.
Thursday, October 03, 2002
Hanna: Usher Raymond and Craig David are my very favourite artists.
Inka: And that's alright. Really.
Hanna: *glare*
Inka: *smile* *nod*
Hanna: Sense the irony in my voice?
Inka: Ohhh?!
Lately I've heard a lot that people never know wheter I'm being serious or not. If that doesn't cause paranoia, I don't know what does. I feel like I don't dare to make jokes about anything anymore.. gah! Also: Mikko told me that he can tell if I'm having a bad day by the way I treat him. If I'm talkative and lively, it's a good day, if I ignore him, a bad day. Now everytime he's around I feel weird because I feel like he's analyzing me and my moods. NO!
We did agree that my mood can be seen from the way I act towards anyone though. But he's the one who said it out loud.. maybe I just shouldn't meet people. I'm thinking of going back to that old plan of mine where I live on a urban mountain, but alone, and once a week the Nice Pilot drops me and my cats some food. Urban mountain, because I need the cables for telly and the net, and well, electricity. And because it sounds funny in Finnish.
Advice: never watch a Beatles film with Hanna. I sing all the songs.. teehee.
Today it's probably Monty Python & Holy Grail.
Wednesday, October 02, 2002
Stop confusing me, you evil meanie!
I guess some people just haven't got a brain.
ps. it appears that my entries are really short nowadays.
Tuesday, October 01, 2002
It seems like I'm never alright anymore.
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