Saturday, March 30, 2002
"Hanna, you are so not Miranda. I'd say that you're mix-up of Carrie and Samantha :D"
Says Riku, the person who, of course, knows me better than anyone. Ok, I agree that I'm not the most Miranda-like person out there [she's my favourite though]. I can see myself being a bit like Carrie - but Samantha? I sure hope not.
What a day. I just want to cry but no tears will come out. Sleep would do me good as I'm extremely tired. I never want to leave the house again. Or then I want to leave the house, the town, the country, everything. Go somewhere far far away. Maybe live as a buddhist monk in Thailand or something. Would they mind having a girl monk? I really don't want to be a nun.
I feel like, if not cancelling it altogether as that's not exactly in my power to do so, quitting the net. At least for a little while. I've thought about quitting the blogs for a few days. Like a week or so. Absolutely no blogging for 7 days. Except maybe here. I don't know.
I just downloaded the theme song from Kuutamolla [the film!!!!] by Laura Närhi and I'm listening it on repeat. Saddest thing ever.
Thursday, March 28, 2002
Who's Your Movie Sidekick? Find out @ She's Crafty
Yes, yes. Quiz madness got me again...
Tralala.. bb.net's forum is back. Without "The Other Room" apparently but that's ok, I never went there anyway. But blah.. nothing of interest in the forum today.Too bad. Except that there is now thread for The Far Side of the World. Weeeeeee! Anyway, nice of Stewart [and the other involved BMGs and Billy] to give us the forum back. I mean, I probably wouldn't have.
Which Sex and the City Player Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty
Nothing to write today except:
BTW, your blog is so good. When I sometimes have time to write in my own, I don't know what to heck to write. Sad, sad, sad... - Virve
First: I like Virve's blog.
Then: here I was yesterday, sitting right here and thinking that the good thing about this blog is that I don't need to write any deep and soulful thoughts. I can write things like "I want to have babies with Sean Astin" and it's all good. If I had chosen a different way to do this, pondering the existence of universe or something, or just tell about my life!, I wouldn't post anything for weeks. Now everyone won't see how shallow and lifeless I actually am. Hee..
Wednesday, March 27, 2002
Huh? Where's my commentor??
Ohhhh.. seems like Yaccs is down. Darn it.
I just finished watching the Oscars [or the 2 hour thing we got anyway]. I've come to the conclusion that I want to have babies with Sean Astin. He's your Mr Joe Regular, common looking nice family man but still slightly nuts with a wee bit of that Hollywood glamour. I want that. Too bad a) he's already taken b) I don't really want kids anyway. But if.. okay, shutting up.
...shutting up about Sean Astin anyway! Ha!
Why's everyone saying Russel Crowe is an arse? Because he happened to be in a film that won 4 Oscars this year? I've never seen any of his films so I wouldn't know about his talent. But I've been reading some interviews and such, and yes, he seems a little peculiar but not an arse by any means. Strange.
Happy dance! New computer! Yes, yes! And a whopping 60GB more space [I used to have 4GB..!]! Weeeeeeeee! The soundcard isn't working yet, though. But my stepdad is working on it.
Riku got me all pissed off today. And I think I got him all pissed off too. Or then not. ARG! Probably it was just a big misunderstanding both ways. But if you're reading this: I'm sorry if I said something rude! You and your nasty-ish toned e-mail just had the worst possible timing. Hmh.
I found the most embarrassing thing today. Me and Anna-Leena have been talking about fanfiction lately [you still haven't told me all those thoughts you had about the origins of fanfic] and I remembered I tried writing it myself a few years back. I found the Westlife fic which was actually quite alright. Very corny but alright. Today I found the most horrendous disk ever. I think I need to destroy it. Twice. Gaah! It cointained my terrible attempts of writing visuals. Visuals for goodness sake! They sucked. Eeeep! Even back then I knew I was good at coming up with the plot and such. But I don't know what is it, my pure and innocent mind or what, I've never been good with the NC-17 stuff.
For those of you who don't know, "visual" is a short story, just a cover-up word for porn really. I was 16 when I wrote those! Thankfully I've given up the habit of writing them, they were terrible. And a very unwelcome shock because I really didn't remember them at all. I even found a website I had made [but never published]. Visual archive for me and other authors. Gaaaa!
I have to tell everybody something: I'm having an affair with George Yule. :D
I meet him every day for an hour or so and I'm just in awe. Teehee.. I love his book. I know "The Study of Language" sounds like the most boring book ever but I'm really enjoying it. A bad writer could've ruined the book by writing in a dull way but Yule's language is beautiful. Anyone who's even a bit interested in languages [especially English], read the book. It really is worth it.
Today I've also got a date with Whoopi. Yes, yes.. Oscars finally air over here. Of course I know all the winners already but I don't mind. I had to choose between Black Hawk Down and the Oscars but that's ok. I'm not that interested in the film anyway. And now I can spend the money dad gave me for it on some other film, like Shipping News! I heart Lasse Hallström! <3
Well, need to go and prepare for the Whoopi date. I even made some nice salad. I'm not dressing up, though ;) Hold on. I've got a date with Whoopi and Emily actually! I just need to print out Emily's Oscar report and read it while I'm watching. Heee..
Tuesday, March 26, 2002
"Legally" online now.
I hate this keyboard. It makes me to do even more typos than usual. I corrected a few hilarious ones in the last post. I may not be perfect but I don't want the whole world to know how far from it I actually seem to be.
And while I'm here, I can write something too. Weee! The film I was talking about last week. They were shooting it again yesterday. I could tell because the halo light was back and I didn't even have a light in my room at 10pm when it's usually the darkest. The other reason I knew they were shooting yesterday: our local paper wrote about it last weekend! I was so mad at them.. They probably didn't realize how much damage that would cause.
Honestly. In the cast, there's this guy who's like the Finnish version of Paul Nichols. No wait, Paul Nichols is an incredibly old hat.. he was the hot guy when I was 13! Eeeh.. Well, whoever the hot teen idol nowadays in some silly soap is, causing hysteria among sad teenyboppers. And naturally because his presence was announced in the local paper, all these girls from nine to 13 were there, trying to see him or talk to him or whatever. The situation even went so far that some of the younger girls actually licked the windows of his trailer while the older girls tried to drag them off and calm down. One of the older cast members came out and had a chat with the girls.
But the whole thing must have been insane! Poor Jasper! I'm sure he doesn't want that kind of attention, especially when he's working [in a tiny, tiny town of 9000 people]. And poor girls! What did they think they'd achieve? Now they only made complete fools of themselves and were probably laughed at. But big hurrah for Mr Peter Franzén for coming out from the trailer and actually talking to the girls. He's known to be a nice man. And he was probably a good choice because a) he's a general hottie so the girls did have something to look at and b) he's 30+ so the girls had some respect for him and didn't just jump him. Hehee.. I don't think he could've taken that really. Nice looking and famous he may be but he isn't very big. I sort of met* him once in a bar after one of his performances and he was almost the same height as me. And I'm short!
* sort of met --> we were ordering drinks next to each other and I had a chance for thanking him for the great perfomance but chickened out. I was shy and 17 [and illegally in the bar].
Blast. I missed the beginning of Gilmore Girls again. It's not a very good show but one of the few I can be bothered to watch anymore. Is it just me or is the TV just full of crap nowadays?
Still no computer news. Harumph. But hopefully soon!
I'm alone at home so I could sneak in and use another computer in secret >D No one will ever know.. before they get the phone bill anyway..
My Wild Single Life. I just went out and spent the last hour walking around the town with a nice elderly gentleman [also known as "dad"]. I need something to do!!!! I knew that I spend way too much time with my dear old pooter, but I've never realized how bad this actually is.. I'm just lost. Annoyance.
Hee.. Virve! It was a typo! I did mean Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy :D Last night as I was going to bed I got this nasty feeling that I had written the name wrong and now when I'm online, it was the first thing I checked. Waah! But I won't correct it. I let it stay there.. may it remind the world that even I am not perfect ;)
And Emily, e-mailing you is the first thing I'll do when I get my computer back! I'm able to read my e-mails and reply even because of my lovely webmail but I don't dare to reply to you as it would take ages [which you very well know] and I'm not exactly sure my stepdad would like that...
Monday, March 25, 2002
Hurrah! I have no computer. Stepdad tried to make some changes to improve it but instead just got it all screwed up. I know he didn't mean it but somehow he manages to do that every single time...
I've been all lost without my computer today though. I checked the Oscar winners this morning and after that I haven't even been able to check my e-mail :( But I've read a lot. I even went thorugh a few chapters of an important study book today. I have to make that a daily routine from now on or I'll never finish those books on time.
I finally finished reading the Hobbit today as well! I weeped all the way from the big battle to Thorin's death. But what a lovely book it was! I got my LOTR back last Saturday and reading it now would feel like the most natural thing ever but I know I shouldn't do it. Those study books are way, way too important and I just know that if I started reading LOTR now, I wouldn't be able to concentrate on anything else. I've got the Hitch Hiker's Guide to Trilogy series in English there waiting for me, I could read those instead. It's very dangerous too if we think about those study books, but not even nearly as dangerous as LOTR.
Anyhooo.. Off to check the e-mail. At times like these I love Nebula for giving me the opportunity to use webmail!
Meh. No oscar for Sir Ian. Jim Broadbent does deserve his though. He's a wonderful, wonderful actor. So I'm not complaining. And goooo Howard Shore! Woohoo! 4 Oscars for LOTR isn't that bad really. And they've got 2 more years to win Oscars for best picture and such. Teehee.. I'm hopeful.
Some images spotted at oscar.com:
PJ - Mr Wood - Sir Ian
I wish they didn't have that Cadillac ad there after every 4 pictures or so, though.. :|
Sunday, March 24, 2002
Take the Which Beatle Kid Are You? Quiz by indefinitley.
I'm eating frozen strawberries my granpa sent me. Mmm.. these are nice, I haven't had any in ages! I have absolutely nothing to write tonight. Apart from being annoyed because I won't see the Oscars before Wednesday! Harumph. Hobbits. In. Tuxes. I'll be glued to floor in front of the telly on Wednesday though.
They're finally showing Black Hawk Down in my home town now. Well, they were. Today was the last day. I couldn't go because I'm all broke! My typical luck. Then again, I did use my last money on theatre ticket for Friday so it should be worth it. Finnish version of Jesus Christ Superstar, though.. I love the musical but as hard as I try, I can't imagine those songs in Finnish. It might be ok but the odds are it's just plain bad.
Saturday, March 23, 2002
It's spring now. Every year my spring officially starts from the day I hear Sub Urban Tribe's First Spring Day on the radio. That was a few days ago. Today I also felt all summer-y. Beautiful, beautiful weather. I love spring even though I don't much care for summer.
I spent the evening with two of my friends. I was on the worst possible mood really. I just wanted to be alone or.. well, anything apart from being with anyone. And for once I actually have the whole flat for myself since mum & stepdad are visiting granpa! So after we finished watching Bridget Jones, I just kicked my friends out, poor girls.
I'm way too obsessed with Velvet Goldmine! Oh, how I heart the film. I watched it again this week. And once again I'm downloading more songs.. I'm only missing 9 now. I ought to burn them on CD really, I just can't :( But maybe someday when my stepdad is ready to give up his old computer.. sigh. I wish it was soon. He's got three now! And my dear old pooter will die any day now.
What to do tonight..? It's been ages since I've read any Harry Potter fanfic. I might give that a shot.
Friday, March 22, 2002
Which Rocky character are you?
Hmmmmmmmmmmm....
Thursday, March 21, 2002
I'm in love with WinMX! Yes! Finally all those pretty Velvet Goldmine songs are mine, mine..!
I'm not too keen on my sister right now, though. She made me feel all nasty because I don't want to become a comic artist. She phoned me today, all hyper about this comic drawing school she'd found. Perfect for me and blah blah blah.. Anyhooo.. After she'd ranted a while I said that I wasn't interested. And then she began this whole "I found a perfect school for you and you say you're not even interested, how nice, it would've been so great, you know, and I know you'd like to go there" routine. She drives me crazy! I tried to explain that yeah, I wanted to do comics when I was 13 but now my only interest concerning comics is reading them. Now I'm all upset because she got all upset because I told her that.
Yesterday she was going on about the fact that I must become en English teacher. Like... arggg.. I want to study English, yes. Do I want to be a teacher? Err, no. And my sister's always the one saying how I shouldn't listen to anyone else's opinions, I should just do what I want to.
Need to search for some VG lyrics.. heee.. :)
Wednesday, March 20, 2002
It appears that mum knows The Ideal Man. Cannot cope. Want to die.
Other news:
They're shooting this new major budget [by Finnish standards] film in my home town at the moment. ??! Well, anyway. There's this scene where four brothers are robbing a bank and of course they're filming it at night time. All the street lights are out and this huuuuge halo light thingie lights the whole town centre. It looks pretty eerie. And that means that Hanna and the digital camera are out there too. Teehee.
It's a bit blurry because I couldn't keep still, it was way too embarrassing to stand out there alone photographing the church & grave yard. Eeep. What were all those people doing out there after 9pm anyway? Apparently not photographing because I was the only one holding a camera.. :)
Briefly: I got my CAE results today. A! A!! I'm such a genius! May all you the lesser beings bow before me. :D
Tuesday, March 19, 2002
Hmmm... I was surfing this one blog, right. I've been there before because the bloggers are members of some of my cliques. I'm not really a fan of the content there but I was dead bored.. Anyway, I came across these links to very secret diaries.. A lot like the ones by Cassandra Claire but of the LOTR actors instead of the characters. I didn't like the idea but if you know me, you also know that I read them. Ack! That's just... weird shit.
I was just staring at the screen blankly when I read those, but one thing in Billy's diary made me grin: Viggo skulking in background. Think has evil plan. Or perhaps is just being Viggo. Hee.. I don't have the URL for those diaries anymore but if you really want to know, I can find out.
Oh, and I did this quiz about a week ago or so but haven't posted the result anywhere. So.. errr.. yay?
"Congrats, your celeb match is Elijah Wood! You like a guy who's sweet, sensitive, a real sweetie who's truly a dork at heart! He can be shy at times, but you'll be there to reassure him. This guy is perfect for a meaningful long term relationship. He may never be on the cover of 'seventeen' but his true beauty and talent will be remembered. He'll treat you like a true princess. You are one lucky gal!"
Oh. My. God. I just saw the ideal man! Johnny Depp, meet your equal. First I saw him at the cash machine and then at the grocery store. Gracious. I swear, I've never ever seen a man like that. Lond dark & curly hair, dark brown eyes [with this certain sad but kind look in them], beard and clothes a bit rugged but still stylish. Did I talk to him? Hell no. It was hard enough to talk to the lady at the counter when the man was standing right behind me. Agggghh.
Monday, March 18, 2002
Shite. People are stupid. Honestly.
I might be over emotional and all but I cried when I read this. Poor Mr Steel! I mean, I may have said nasty-ish things about him at the moments of annoyance but I never wanted him any harm. How can somebody be so harsh? And really, what do they benefit? I'd really like to know what kind of person does a thing like that. I don't blame Stewart for reacting the way he did. This may be one of those rare times I actually do follow his trail of thoughts.
Pluggety plug: Moony [& Chivi]! Not only did he plug me but he's got a new layout to die for.
The funniest phone incident happened today. Emily phoned me but I wasn't at home so my stepdad answered. Emily's transcript of the conversation:
person answering phone: dhsjhg;dfhgkhsd;ghfsjdghf <- something like "hello" in a language emily doesn't understand
here's emily: ..... <- now realizing she has no knowledge of finnish languages.
emily: um >mutters< may i speak to hanna?
person answering phone: hdgjshksdgh;dfgkhds;gj <- something to the extent of "huh?"
emily: hanna!
person answering phone: ah! hanna (emily understands this part!) sdhjhsdghjkdfhgjkdfhlgdfhglsdhgjfhslf (emily doesn't understand this part)
at this point i decided somehow perhaps i could communicate my name.
emily: this is... um, emily
person answering phone: hsdgjhg;hsdfg;shfg;jsdf (translation: huh!??!)
emily: emily- i emil- i'll call later
>insert a brief conversation here of person answering phone saying "i don't speak english" which i knew he was saying, but i didn't know how to respond- i kept thinking, "i know i know! i'm not speaking english! i'm saying my name- emily..." note to self: next time calling foreign country, learn most basic communicable phrases i.e. "hello" "my name is" dag. some language i could have gotten by in, say- spanish but! oh!)
person answering phone: (attempting english for the moron on the other line) hanna no >insert word which sounds like home here<
emily thinks of how to respond with a word which will be understood.
emily: yes! yes! ok!
person answering phone: ok!
emily: thank you!
person answering phone: thank you.
Ok, so it probably wasn't too funny when it happened - no more for her than him. My stepdad was mortified when explained his version of the story. It pretty much matched.. It appears that the poor man tried to communicate with Emily in Swedish :D Anyway, Emily phoned me later and we "spoke" for a few minutes. Most of it was just us giggling and me panicking. That phone call helped me realize something, though. I need to speak more English! I used it daily from September to December but now I just write it daily. The fluency is disappearing... noooooo! I want it back!
I've been playing with mum's digital camera today. Awesome little gadget.. I took some pictures of my room [requested..] and various self portraits because I wanted to have a pic of some sort up at LW. I swear, I can't pose to save my life! I think this one's my favourite.
Well.. the framing wasn't that good, I edited it a bit [but just a little!]. And to think that both of my parents are professional journalists [or were since neither of them works as a journalist anymore] who also had to take the photos for their articles, you can tell it really runs in the family... :D
Help! Westlife karaoke contest on the radio!
Sunday, March 17, 2002
So here we are... Ash in my tomatoes has moved.
Layout: AJ McLean. I was going to go for Johnny Depp or Jonathan Rhys-Meyers but none of the pics I had looked good. Where the AJ idea came from, I don't know.
Nothing to post now but this is a testing entry anyway.
Hayden Christensen on telly.. hurrah! The show [Higher Ground] doesn't seem too good, though.
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