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Bollocks.
The whole spring I've had this project of trying to eat correctly and healthily. Nothing major, just trying to make sure I'm eating enough, not getting much more or less energy than I manage to spend during the day. Makes sense, right? Right.

Wonderful realistation of the morning: I am still eating way too little.

and how did this happen? I've somehow managed to ignore the fact that what my body spends every day, even if I'm just lying on my back the whole day, and the amount it spends during a normal day, i.e. walking around and doing the everyday stuff, is entirely different thing.

So we're talking about numbers like from -700kcal to -1300kcal every day. o_O
(To those of you who don't know anything about calories, the sum equals about 1,5-2 biggish meals. Or a pizza.)

This is so annoying.
Naturally, now when I've realised this, I want to fix the situation. But I already eat five times a day, and haven't even really felt hungry or anything. In other words, the lack of energy isn't really showing. Still, I need to fix it, because I don't want my body using my already almost non-existent muscles as a source for energy if it's not getting proper nutrition.

I'm depressed.
And don't feel like writing the literary & cultural theory essay I need to get done this week. Aaa. Almost ready to give up entirely.